She left without saying goodbye. She left without any warning. They only reason I knew she was gone was because she told ONE friend. I guess she had to tell someone. And the friend sounded an alarm. I had not seen her in a week already before she left and then it was only for an hour. She deprived me of a last day with all three of my daughters together. She stole a memory I needed to have in my life. She stole the photo to look at after her sister leaves. She stole the last get together as a family. There will be no more birthday parties or holidays as a family for God knows how long. She deprived me and herself of a wedding we've talked about for years. She deprived us of being excited and happy at the wonderful news of her first child and left fear of the future in it's place. She is pregnant, jobless, homeless, temporarily sleeping on the couch of the stepmother of a guy who will have trouble getting a job because of his record. They can't come back because he has absconded on bond from an arrest here.
She deprived me of the love of my daughter. The one who was closest to me.
It's been raining every day
since you went away
But it won't wash away the pain.
After all, it's only rain.
I've been crying every day
since you went away
But that doesn't change a thing.
I don't want the phone to ring
I've been praying everyday
since you went away.
But it doesn't ease my mind.
Peace I just can't find.
I've been hoping every day
that this will go away
But it's a useless game.
Things will never be the same.
Alright. I'm done whining. Maybe. But I can't live in the dark forever. I have to find a way to hope. I'm struggling with that. And that's not something I usually struggle with. My faith has never been challenged. It isn't now. But I know faith doesn't mean easy and I'm already Worn.
